Lonely Night, Lonely Me

Six weeks left… I am still counting down… Next week is a siong week… I have both supervisor’s and principal’s observations (wed n thurs) in one week… luckily there’s still Good Friday to look forward to… long weekend… not realli tat long but every day counts…

I am feeling lonely… I hate to admit it but I realli am… maybe tis busy n stressful period is making me emotionally vulnerable… at the end of a busy day or during a preciously short weekend, how I long to have someone by my side… to listen to my troubles… to hold my hand and tell me I’m not alone… to give me a warm hug when I’m feeling down…

Sadly… when I reach out my hand, all I grab is emptiness… it gets depressing at times… I have always been a happy-go-lucky guy (at least in other people’s eyes)… but now I cun find any reason to be happy… there’s no motivation or spirit in me… every morning before I go to school, I look into the mirror and have tis same thought “The start of another pointless, meaningless day…”

A few of my frenz asked me if I regret signing the bond to be a teacher… well, I dun realli know… ya the work is shitty, hours are long (including those spent at home planning lessons), lack of sleep blah blah blah… but all these are not the source of my unhappiness… afterall, I always know the harsh reality tat there’s problems n difficulties to overcome in ANY job… but the sad thing is tat after going thru all the shit, there’s noone there by ur side… well… not exactly noone… thankfully, my parents are still there for me and I realli appreciate them being there for me… but maybe I’m greedy… it’s juz not enough… there’s always the feeling of something missing…

Scorpios are hopeless romantics (ya ya… I am blaming it on my zodiac again)… maybe I juz miss the good old days of being in love… maybe I’m juz too tired le ba…

说我自私也好，说我不甘寂寞也罢，我只是想有个人在我身边。。。

Grumble Grumble

Practicum pass so slow,
Weekends pass so fast…

Too much work,
Too little time…

Enuff of students’ nonsense,
Not enuff sleep…

Haiz… I ended up grumbling afterall…

Seven weeks left… 我会熬过去的 !!!

我是“老人家”？

看电视时听到一段很有趣的话。。。

一个人什么时候才算老呢？

老人家有以下四种症状：

坐着打瞌睡，躺着睡不着，
往事不能忘，眼前事记不牢。

哈哈。。。真有趣。。。而且很有道理。。。

原来我真的老了。。。

Taking a break... Lesson plans coming up...

Finally handed in two of my assignments today… STARTED and COMPLETED yesterday… haha… luckily managed to finish in time… going to enjoy myself tis two days before having to chiong lesson plans tis weekend… 想到就 sianz…

My family did some major shopping tis week… rushing to make purchases before the increase in GST… our shopping cart includes a set of system 2 aircon (meaning the 2-room type), a washing machine and a new mattress for me…

The mattress arrived yesterday… cost 200 bucks… but it’s the sea horse brand hard and thick type… so quite worth it… and I specially ordered the enlarged version… normal single mattress is 36 inches wide, mine is 42 inches… comfort is of top priority… haha… however, it means a sad goodbye to my beloved bed… after serving me for more than 20 years (it deserves a long service award), it finally announced its honorable retirement from duty…

Enuff of updates… tok abt something else… recently kept hearing ppl around me toking abt planning to further studies, take up courses or change jobs etc… regardless of whether it’s to get a higher degree, or a better job, ultimately it’s all abt trying to earn as high a salary as possible… everyone is aiming high, everyone except me… am I too lacking in ambition? Or juz too easily contented? Honestly speaking, having juz a diploma realli limits my earning power… the difference in pay btw a uni graduate and a diploma holder is realli quite big… but seriously, I lack the motivation n interest to go pursue a degree… maybe I am juz finding a excuse… maybe I’m juz lazy… maybe… I dun realli care…

I am ME… juz simple ME… of course I hope to be both HAPPY and RICH… but if I can onli choose one, HAPPINESS is my ONLY choice… while u are slogging ur life trying to put abalone on ur table, I am happily enjoying my roti… 人各有志, the most important thing is to be urself…

菩提本无树，明镜亦非台，本来无一物，何处惹尘埃。。。

心好乱，信念动摇了。。。

Duno whether it’s due to the lack of sleep… my mind has been in a mess lately… some of my frenz are facing r/s problems and going thru a rough patch recently… being a “concerned friend”, I tried to lend a listening ear to their problems and offer some advice n consolation… however, as I listened more n more, I sort of became affected by their “negative” mood… maybe it’s something like “感同身受”… listening to their stories, relating to my own experiences, memories start to resurface… as I tink over wat some of them said, I find myself begin to have doubts in some of my beliefs in love…

Two of my frenz, the so-called “golden couple”, who had gone steady for 12 years (!) are recently considering a divorce (!!) after juz one year (!!!) of marriage…

Another fren… a gal who spent almost a year chasing the “guy of her dreams”… whose whole life revolves around the guy… spent most of her money on him, even gave him her so-valued chastity (she’s a devoted Christian)… now she suddenly says “Maybe I dun really love him.” ???

Honestly, I realli dun understand wat a lot of ppl are thinking nowadays… izzit becoz I am out-dated le? Or my thinking not following the times? Of course I understand the logic behind 合则来，不合则散… I oso understand tat if two ppl realli cun get along, 勉强是没有幸福的… however, I cun help but feel many ppl nowadays are abusing these phrases, they are taking relationships too lightly n giving up too easily… but perhaps I am juz another case of “pot calling the kettle black”… I have made the same mistakes before… wat right do I have to criticize others?

你相信这世界上有真爱吗？

我相信，因为相信比较幸福。。。

Restaurant Review - Bosses

Ok… my laptop problem is more or less fixed (for the time being)… my fren say it’s juz a loose monitor connection so no big deal…

Anyway, here’s an out-dated post… I went to eat at this restaurant last Tuesday at Vivocity… the name sounds cool and the online review write until machiem beri nice lidat… so went to try try…

Here’s a brief review of the place:

Name: “Bosses” or “黑社会”
Location: Vivocity Level 2 (along same row as Haagen Daz)
Décor: The theme of the place is “black”, overall look quite sophisticated BUT… (to be explained later)
Menu: The food is Chinese cuisine, similar to crystal jade style… no dim sum after 5pm… taste and presentation is slightly below standard (in my POV)… quite a variety of items to choose from thou the menu is abit distracting…
Price: Quite reasonable and affordable considering the fact tat the décor looks expensive… average of abt 7-10 bucks for a rice or noodle item, ard 5 dollars for side dish/dim sum item like xiaolongbao… average expenditure for us tat day is abt $20 per person…

Personal remarks:
I like the décor/look of the place, black is nice but hor… somehow the décor n food dun match… the décor raises ur expectations but the food pales in contrast… the food’s presentation is so plain n even sloppy to some extent… taste, as I mentioned, not up to standard… the xiaolongbao has the “入口即化”effect but it’s onli becoz the meat fillings is so soggy tat we once suspect tat it’s spoilt… the claypot rice n ramen dishes are quite plain… one thing can try is the “流沙包” but it’s onli for ppl who like salty eye yolk… but overall nothing realli spectacular… so quite disappointing… another “attraction” of the place is the toilet… I almost crashed into the wall while visiting the toilet coz it’s made up entirely of mirrors… so confusing…

Overall, in my humble opinion, I recommend u to go once for the experience as the restaurant is quite unique in its own way (plus it’s not exp so dun hurt to try)… but it’s definitely not worth a second visit… maybe if u go next time, can go before 5pm and try the dim sum as they seem not bad… hopefully, they’ll turn out beta than the other dishes…

Score: 4/10

For another review n pics of the place, pls refer to my fren’s blog at http://www.chimestarz.blogspot.com/ or click on “Pei Ling” under “links” by the side…

Laptop Problem

I had a huge shock juz now… reached school, started up my laptop… … … * black screen * … ? … ! … !!! oh no… the laptop booted up (coz have lights and can hear cpu running) but the monitor was not showing anything… jialat… my group assignment (webquest latest version) still inside n haven’t backup wor… *sweat*… deadline is tmr… *sweating profusely*… and of course, my “art collection”… gone… *screaming in hysteria*…

Luckily, after trying to restart a few times, the laptop monitor was back up n running… else I wun be blogging here liao… but seriously, having a monitor blackout is definitely not a good sign… beta backup all my impt files and send my laptop for a “checkup” soon…